It has been a week now that I have been free from work. My house is clean and everything is done when it needs to be. We have taken a very long walk yesterday that showed me that I am so out of shape. So the focus in the weeks to come is to build my health both physically and mentally.
The journey will be fun as I have time for me and to see what makes me relax and contented. I am already happy and thankful for many of the things that I have achieved in this journey in life so far.
The idea of me needing to loose 15 kg is daunting but that is basically what I gained in a year. Yes it was a lot but the stress that I was under was tremendous. A divorce and custody negotiations, a new partners mess from his dead wife that needed to be fixed. The best of us would have said enough. I do not drink nor do I smoke so I guess food was used. I am sure I am not the first nor will I be the last. Seriously I dont blame me nor do I blame my situation. It was what was needed to get to where I should be. I far from over as I am still in this journey.
So here I am at 38 with no real paper education only 18 years of work experience. Will this paper hungry work force give me a chance to show them what I am good for or am I considered not good enough for the work force. Yes it is both ascary thing and I am sure there are many that have been here where I am now. You see I am not special nor am I unique but I am me. A person who is loved by what my mother consider to be a very patient man. Now that says a lot to get mum's approval.
I can always lie in a ball and cry my eyes out but I wont. I have never felt sorry for myself nor will I ever. As life is a blessing and my problems are trivial to what others go through. I am grateful to god to allow me to have food on my table, a roof over my head and clean drinking water. My problems are not problems and I will treat it acvordingly, a life journey to show me that I am lucky and loved.
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