I had a dream a few days ago. It basically sums me and my life up. I was in my childhood neighbourhood. I was carrying the old school tin tiffin carrier buying food and stopping to buy food that I know my mum would like and too much food. I then was walking home, the tiffin that I carried on my left shoulder was heavy while on my left hands I was carrying several plastic bags full of things. I had to stop several times as my shoulder was hurting and the weight of the tiffin was digging in my shoulder. I then came to a cross road where I had to take a left to walk home and it was too heavy and I wanted to take a cab. All off sudden there were several people pushing me trying to get into the cab that I was flagging down. Then out of nowhere comes a guy who took hold of the tiffin and started to walk towards my home, helping me carrying my burden. I was behind him trying to keep up and telling him to be care full carry it up right and not spill the gravy in the tiffin.
Now the dream is obvious to me, mum and T.I. It is about me and the burden I have taken on. I take it upon me to take care of my loved ones and it is has been overwhelming and I can't do it anymore. I also need to probably learn to relax and let others help me instead.
I have several times needed to take a break and rest due to exhaustion. I now have the opportunity to do so and take time to take care of me and get mentally and physically strong again. I will look for a new job and in the meantime try out some stuff that I have found fun doing like cooking and to allow people to order my meals on certain days through the Internet. It is still in the planning stages and I will do some research and see what I end up doing. I want to take the next few months reading, cleaning my home, take long walks and learning to take care of me.
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