I am no spring chicken. I was born an old soul and continue to grow older inside of me. For that I am exhausted. No one ever said life was easy nor that I will have made it by a certain age.
There are very few people who has loved and appreciated me for who I am and for that they get my love and loyalty.
I am soon turning 40. I am now going to try to figure out how to not get sick when I am stressed and boy have I been stressed through the years. I am nursing a cold as I am writing this. I am good friends with infections, colds and migraines. I am not sure if I will ever find out the solution but I am sure going to try finding it. In the meantime I will not let my feverish mind go totally out of hand. The things that floats in the head at 3 am when you are so sick and want to sleep but you cant. I am sure we have all been there once. I hope anyway.
So what are my plans? I dont have any so if any of you humans out there who is not reading this have a good plan for me do give a shout out. By the way I am sure jesus cant help me as I see him as a prophet and not a god.
Actually looking back I surprised I am still alive and have most of mental health with me. At age 12 I have already started to say I am not sane and surviving is what I try to do. I have learnt the hard way those who say they love you are the ones who hurt you most and finding your soulmate is something that everyone should experience in their lifetime.
Now I have to walk this life of mine as an adult. I have no plans nor do I have any idea what is installed for me. Either way it will be full of surprises.
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